my baby Nico

he's growing up too fast and it makes me happy and sad at the same time.. how i wish his dad was here to witness every change and development he's been through. how i wish we're complete. "soon, babe. soon" i always tell my Nico. and he smiles at me as if he understand. i can't wait to see my baby playing with his dad. that would be the best feeling ever. soon, Monique. soon.

FACEBOOK TIMELINE

ok. so love ko na ulit ang facebook ngayon, kahit na may feeds padin sa gilid. feeling ko kasi stalker mode ang dating ko kahit hindi naman ako nang iistalk (bakit ba kasi kailangan pang may ganon?!). wala lang.. just sharing. ang alam ko kasi by October pa ilalabas yang bagong facebook timeline. ^_^

I'm baaaack!

I've been gone for so long, I don't even know where to start. *thinking*

Leggo!

I gave birth on August 1st to a healthy baby boy, and the story goes like this...

July 30 - Sleep over at ate's house. Been hoping to give birth a little earlier than August 7 that's why me and Carlo (my nephew) watched like 6 horror/suspense movies in a row. My tummy started to ache (a little) that night.

July 31 - (tummy's still aching a bit) went to Gimli, a two-hour drive not so good looking beach, with the family. We arrived there like 1 or 2 in the afternoon. The kids went swimming, etc. and I, on the other-hand, was just observing the pain and contractions I'm feeling. At about 5 in the afternoon I talked to my sister and told her that I maybe am in labor. And yes I really am. On our way home, the pain starts to get more intense and I'm having contractions every 5 minutes (I can still smile, though). When we arrived home, I took a shower and packed my things and went straight to the hospital. We arrived there at 7:15 in the evening. They put me in a room where they check and prioritize the patients (triage). Upon having the internal examination, the nurse told me that my cervix is 3 cm dilated and my contractions are regular. At this stage, I know I can still go home. But then the monitor they put in my tummy says otherwise. I had a problem. Every time my uterus contracts, my baby's heartbeat slows down. And this is very worrisome. The doctor told me that if the condition goes on, the baby might feel very tired and may go on to fetal distress. I was shocked. It felt like the whole world is spinning around me. So the doctor advised me to stay. My water broke at 8:10 pm and I'm already 4 cm dilated. They transferred me to the Critical Care unit (my baby's still being monitored so I didn't had the chance to stand up and walk). As my cervix continues to dilate and as the pain intensifies, I asked for the epidural. I'm a very ticklish person so the doctor had to poke me two times.

August 1 - 8 cm dilated at 12 am. Fully dilated (10 cm) at 2 am. Oh yes, I'm in epidural, but you can't escape the pain of pushing the baby out. And the worst part? They didn't cut my perineum right away. The result: lacerations. 

Honestly, I can't imagine how I did it. I remember my sister telling me that my face looks like it was about to burst. It was all red as if all the nerves in it has exploded. But then, when I saw Nicolai and heard him cry... Oh my.. It was all worth it.. I cried. And I didn't even noticed.

He is a blessing. And I will always thank God for him. :)

ok, so i didn't finish the 30 day picture challenge thingy. i've been very busy sleeping, eating, and browsing the net for the past few days. and i've been waiting for nicolai since i reached my 37th week. but until now he's not yet here. maybe i'm just too excited. anyway, my due date is still on august 7 and that's 2 weeks from now. maybe i'll just have to wait. and that's the only thing i can do for now. buying baby stuffs, my favorite past time as of now. and i so love it. i'm excited to be a mom :)

Day 27 (Picture Challenge)

A photo of last summer

Duty at UST hospital. Summer time is duty time for nurses!

Day 26 (Picture Challenge)

A photo of your favorite weekend

House blessing and surprise baby shower. Totally speechless. This was my favorite weekend so far. :)

Day 25 (Picture Challenge)

A photo of a night you loved

The night after our wedding. :) Not because of the honeymoon or something, but because it was our 1st night as husband and wife. We went home together, slept together, ate together, as a married couple. It feels awesome.

The Sweetest Thing

Thank you my.. Ingat kayo palagi, can't wait na makita ko kayong dalawa na naghihintay sakin.. Sarap ng feeling na yun, aalagaan mo sya habang wala pa ako ha, i miss u! Love you my.

From my hubby. Makes my heart melt. I'm so in love! ♥

Day 24 (Picture Challenge)

A photo of you that your hair looks nice in

I have lots of photos wherein my hair looks nice. I chose this one because my I miss my long hair. But I don't think I'll have this hair again. I'm loving the shorter one and I'm planning to have a haircut soon. 

Day 23 (Picture Challenge)

A photo of your friend as a baby

NORTH. He's the 1st thing that came to my mind. I remember he used this as his dp in facebook. So cute! So oinky. LOL! Peace Northy! I miss you! ^_^